I don’t know about you, but a number of things have my life turned upside down. I look at life, and think, “Man, this is not what I had planned at all.”
I am not in full time ministry like I used to be, and trained for. My health is a shambles. My wife has serious heart problem. The economy has gone stupid. The world seems in such upheaval. Everything seems in such negative flux right now.
There are a lot of things that I am unsure of right now. Politically, I think, “Man, are these the best people this nation has to offer?” I never put a lot of faith in politics.
Obviously I can’t trust a lot of what I am seeing on News channels on TV. There seems to be bias everywhere. Advertisers want to tell you that their product is the best, number one etc etc. Except they can’t all be the best, they can’t all be number one.
With all the uncertainty of our times, I do find security when I am reading my Bible. It doesn’t change. It has passed the test of time. What it said would happen, has happened. If anything, I do need to read more of the Word. It gives me something more solid to hold onto than political flavor of the week, or the current thought or fad.
And it has a grip of me as well. Sometimes with as crazy as the world is, I am wondering if I can still find right side up. I don’t know about you, but a lot of my expectations have been dashed. And some of that leaves me large areas of confusion. But there are some things for certain though, that I do know down to the very core of my being. Those areas have been tested, and have passed!
Sometimes church politics and what is does to people can be really destructive. But I didn’t fall in love with building or an organization, or a board of people, I fell in love with a Savior. When life hurts Christ is who I go back to.
Have you ever had a concussion? I only had one. And that was obviously a time for confusion for me. It was first week of college, and I hit my head on the pavement after wrecking on a skateboard ramp. I was totally dazed and confused. Some of my friends took me to the emergency room. I can kind of remember them saying “Your wife and kids are going to be OK!” (I was single at the time with no kids). They were just messing with an already confused me. I had a CAT scan that I don’t remember, I signed hospital papers that I don’t remember signing, but it was obvious later that it was my real signature. But my friends did tell me afterwards that what I kept saying at the hospital to the doctors and the nurses when I couldn’t answer their questions, “I am confused and I don’t know a lot of things, but one thing I do know, I love Jesus!” My soul was laid bare, the very core of my hope made public.
Maybe part of that, I am back to today. Work is not going as good as I like, life seems a lot harder than I expected. My health and finances are not where I would like them to be, at the age that I am at right now. I am dazed by all the stuff that I am bombarded with. “I am confused and don’t know a lot of things, but one thing I do know, I love Jesus!” I am going to hang on to Him, knowing that He is going to somehow pull me through this situation like He has done for me again and again in the past.